potent potables and wanton-bitchyness-quale

I had some errands to run. Jeramy said he would watch the baby, while I was out I called home, he said my computer did something weird and it looked like it had blue screened, I said that was pretty normal because there is too my crap on my hard drive. I cam home to find this at my computer. he got the crystal vase himself, picked out the flowers and arranged them himself! hiding behind a card was a beautiful necklace. I cried. he makes me so happy, I cry.

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Stephen's new funky toy. You can pull it's legs, and hit it so it giggles, and hell it even has fun fur!

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Stephen's new funky toy. You can pull it's legs, and hit it so it giggles, and hell it even has fun fur!

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Stephen hanging out in the car seat after his dinner and getting ready to go to dinner with us.

So, it seems that my wierd stance of having my hips more forward has gotten worse in pregnancy. I always blame it on the ever so slight scoliosis I have, but maybe I just have shitty posture? anyhow here are some photos that hopefully lamaupin can use.

( all fancy smancy at my aunt's sister's house in Denver for the big family mothers day thing )

i'm am so glad that in three days it will be week 12.

Not having anyone to hang out with or talk to in Fort Collins, other than my parents, sucks.

and also, the pregnancy is going along normally and all that. I did have a sonogram, but I don't plan to post it. I've shared stuff a lot here that might be considred personal but I find this to be one of the most personal things of my life. I will share that the due date is Nov 23rd currently and we currently do not plan to find out the sex.


alos, I miss Jeramy, it sucks not being able to see my husband :(

This is the first tiem we saw Gote.

I can't expres how pissed off I am that my mother made an appointment for me to have my teeth cleaned at 10 am tommrow without talking to me. My first OB app is a 2:00 tommrow as well. I don't know if I have a dental plan, and I really don't give a shit that she is paying for it. It's the fact that she has been on my ass about various health crap ever since I have been here and I didn't even speak to the dentist myself.

I want to set up a baby wishlist online but there are a lot of different sites I like or specific products that have their own specific site. Is there a wishlist type program out there where you can link allt he stuff you like without having to register with a specific store?


also, morning sickness from HELL. morning, noon and night! This is the biggest reason I havn't been around. I have to introduce myself in a new community on LJ but feeling like utter crap isn't helping.

Jeramy is off to San Diego for training and i'm in Fort Collins untill we get our housing on base. So currently it's just me with my mom and dad, though Aunt Karen and her husband are visiting. I miss Jeramy a lot and hope I will be with him again sooner and not later. I miss his kisses and the way he makes me laugh.

also, I don't want people think i'm BABY BABY BABY all the time. I'm concerd about being able to be a parent and still be true to my intrests and myself, which from what I see is really hard, but I see some mothers doing a really kick ass job at it, so it is doable.

anyhow, time to sleep.

currently at my parents in Fort Collins. Things are fine, and I havn't had anymore spotting, the stuff I was having was gone the next day. I'll be staying here untill we get the housing we applied for which could take up to three months.

so, i'm lightly spotting again, whatever the fuck this means. I can't take this stress right now.

so on Thursday I saw a doctor because I was getting Jeramy's cold which he had to go on anti-biotics for. Thus far I have avoided the 102 fever he ended up getting. But my face hurts so bad I can't even tell you. The doctor didn't think it was bacterial but said it could become bacterial very quickly so gave me a prescription for a zpac inc ase it got worse (I can't take penicillin of any kind as I am now allergic to it). Apparently, if I were 12 weeks or further it wouldn't be a huge deal to take anything, but since it's earlier I have to make a choice. I am in so much pain at this point and I don't know if it's bacterial. The doctor says that zpac doesn't often breech the blood-placenta barrier, but has been know to, but not often at all.

I would call the OB nurse, but she won't let me take ANYTHING. not even for allergies, last time I talked to her. She's just like sorry, nothing you can do. And I can't get a hold of the OB because he is so busy, I can't even make an appointment with them until after I move, so I've been told to just make an appointment when we get to Washington which doesn't really help me a lot.

I am at this point incredibly miserable about everything with this pregnancy. I am feeling really sick in general and have the worst back pain I have ever experienced. This cold that might or might not be bacterial on top of it doesn't help. Needing to blow my nose every five min isn't great, and the mucus is green, and at points bloody because of how much I have blown my nose.

Today, I am feeling that I am not the fittest, and maybe have not been ensured survival. Darwinism does not feel on my side.